Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Is it possible for me to quit feeling guilty and pulled in every direction?

Is it possible for me to quit feeling guilty and pulled in every direction? Yesterday afternoon I found myself trying to meet everyone’s “need”. One child wanted me to take her to the gym to work out. One wanted to go shopping for jeans. The dog wanted my attention and even though my husband was not requesting anything at the moment I somehow felt worried I needed to do something for him also. My heart was heavy thinking I would like to spend time with my grown daughter but didn’t know when. Then came in the creeping sadness of missing my second daughter who moved to N.C. to do what I’m so proud of her for doing and that’s being a wife and living her life. How could such a beautiful day be full of so much guilt? I’m still trying to learn I’m not going to make everyone in my world happy. I decided shopping was out of the question, my husband really didn’t need anything, my two grown daughters certainly were not needing me to worry about them at that moment and I made my way out the door to the gym to do myself a favor and grant one person their wish. As I walked on the treadmill I asked God to help me to quit feeling so guilty and inadequate. What came to my mind was the phrase “There is no condemnation in Christ Jesus”. So tonight I looked up the verse. The Message version Romans 8:1 With the arrival of Jesus, the Messiah, that fateful dilemma is resolved. Those who enter into Christ's being-here-for-us no longer have to live under a continuous, low-lying black cloud. A new power is in operation. The Spirit of life in Christ, like a strong wind, has magnificently cleared the air, freeing you from a fated lifetime of brutal tyranny at the hands of sin and death.
Today I didn’t carry all the burdens I was packing around yesterday. I remembered I don’t live under anyone’s condemnation not even my own.

Today I enjoyed a walk just before sunset. The colors in the sky were beautiful I don’t live under a black cloud.


  1. Good story. You do allot and you have to remember to take care of yourself. I like that picture :)

  2. Beautiful post. Thanks for having me drop by to be encouraged by this beautiful song! Nice to get to know other L& D nurses!

  3. There is no condemnation in Christ. I kept meditate on this verse today.. I am deeply loved, greatly blessed and highly favored in Christ, So do you Rebekkah!!